My answer is best summed up by the Edmond Burke
quotation, "The only thing necessary for the triumph
of evil is for good people to do nothing."
I teach people that if they have something to say,
it shouldn't be just a desire but a human duty and
responsibility to help others. If we can change the
text books, if we can teach the children of Iran and
the Middle East that hate is not inherited; it is taught.
If they can understand that children everywhere are
innocent and if they can learn, as I often say, that "Governments
do and People pay", we will save generations of
our human family from the hard core fundamentalists
who
are turning them into human bombs.
Yes it is true that I escaped from all the animosity
in Iran. I lived a fairly peaceful life in Canada but
this changed when I published my book, Living in Hell.
On a tour in California, an Iranian taught me a lesson
while I was being interviewed on the radio. I will
never forget: He called from Iran and said Dear Ms.
Omid, you have a good life. You are a published author.
So, what about us? What have you done for your country?
What have you done for the Iranian children, for the
next generation?
It hit me hard. He was right. It is
my time to serve because the honest truth is when
I was a child, I dreamed
of having someone to stand up for me. That hero never
came to rescue me. I learned early on to scratch
my own back. Now, I am in a position to do something
for
the children, for the next generation and perhaps,
hopefully, for the current one. I don't see it as
my work or obligation, I see it as my responsibility,
as a member of the human family, to serve; however
small that might be.
I was born in 1970 in Abadan,
Iran, minutes from the Iraqi border. I am the youngest
of eleven siblings,
from my father's second wife. I am the youngest of
four children my mother bore my polygamist father.
I grew up both rich and poor at the same time. My
father neglected both of his families, abandoning
us to hide
in the US to avoid the danger of the Iranian revolution.
During
the revolution when we didn't have any schooling,
my mother, at my request, purchased me a small Bible.
My
interest in reading holy books started with reading
the Koran and extended to other holy books at very
young age. On one hand, my mother's stories from
her non-Muslim friends influenced me to want to know more about other
religions. On the other hand, I always relied on
my own experiences and didn't accept
answers without logical explanations.
As an Iranian female, I was brought
up not to question but to obey. However, my mother
and later the government
of Iran found it impossible to turn me into just
a follower.
After the revolutionary Islamic government came
to power, the school texts taught us that Muslims were
good and will go to Heaven, while all others won't
be saved and will go to Hell. That wasn't a good enough
explanation for me. After reading Koran and doing the
Arabic prayers starting at age 7, I did not agree with
the explanation I was given because I knew God has
not called the people of the book the infidels. This
phrase was taken out of context and used over an over
by the government of Iran to teach the Iranian children, "We,
the Muslims are good and the rest of the world, the
Non-Muslims, are evil. And therefore, Good and Evil
will fight and Good will eventually win through human
sacrifices."
I was an inquisitive child. I loved
history, philosophy, culture and I liked to read.
Instead of playing with
dolls and toys, I was reading the news as my mother
helped me to understand Iran's past and present.
But
my childhood dream was to become a doctor! However
that dream died when I entered the political arena
against the government of Iran at age 14.
Like many
children of today's Middle East I grew up in the
war zone. At night we heard shootings, yelling
and screaming from the streets and alleys. Bullets
flew over our yard and some landed in our garden.
At
a young age, I had a bad feeling about the future
of our country. I predicted that we were going
to pay a heavy price for our naivety.
During the revolution
crimes were the norm, after the revolution; brain
washings were part of the regime's
instructional mandates. Books which were part of our
culture for centuries were burned to ashes. Book burnings
were the usual event at the universities. For almost
two years the doors of universities remained closed
while the Revolutionary Guard, better known as "the
Iron Guard", cleaned up everything they thought
was Ungodly or Anti- Regime. The clean up included,
art,
history, philosophy, poetry... and even people.
During the years I lived in Iran, I saw plenty of
devastation toward humanity, in particular toward the
children. In my teen years and youth while living in
Iran, children were brain washed into believing that
Westerners were evil; and that everyone else in the
world who didn't agree with Khomeini, including moderate
Muslims. were also evil.
During the war, children were told that if they
get a Key to Haven from a Mullah, they will receive
his blessing and will go directly to Heaven when
they across the mine fields.
I was asked on more than a dozen occasions
to sign up for Bessigi or the revolutionary militia.
I refused.
I was asked to join the army behind the war zone and
help as a Zainab Sister, as the regime called it. I
refused and made more comments about the mullahs' that
they didn't quite like. The Zainab sisters did everything
from cleaning up the injured Iranian soldiers brought
to the hospitals in the so called "safe zone" to
becoming their temporary wives and even wrapping a
bomb to their
chest and going after whoever the Iranian regime called
the Enemy. The Zainab Sisters program still exists
and since Ahmdinejad has come to power as the President,
it is again being promoted, this time against the West.
During
the years I was studying in Iran, we were lined up
at 7 A. M, every morning, rain or shine, before
attending our classes at 8 A. M to yell, "Death
to America, Death To Israel, Death To United Kingdom,
Death to France and Death to Germany.
I know most people who haven't seen any shouting
against Europeans have a hard time believing this is
true. Especially because for the past decade, Europe
has had an OK relationship with the Iranian regime.
The
truth of the matter is: The Iranian regime will never
change. The regime's watchdogs teach hate
against you and all of the Western world in their schools.
As
children we were ordered to yell every day but when
the camera's were rolling we were told to not
yell Death to the European countries publicly! I
REMEMBER VIVIDLY, MY FRIENDS, BEING HUSHED IN FRONT
OF THE CAMERAS.
The government of Iran considers all the West their
enemies. They simply select whom to hate more on
public television!
Back in Iran, when I made it to high
school at age 14, through reading more books on Islam,
I realized
that what the Government of Iran does to the mind
of children is an unspeakable crime and certainly a
great
sin. At that age, I didn't know how to stop this
crime. I went for more than a year trying not to show
up for
the morning prayers which always contained the anti-western
slogans.
After a year of playing with the minds of the
regime's watchdogs in the high school, the principal
who was
watching me in the school yard, finally found me in
one of the classes. She forced me to go to the morning
prayers and stood in the line up next to me. I stood
up there but wouldn't shout. Then she stood right in
my face. I moved my mouth up and down but no voice
was coming out. She screamed , "Why aren't you yelling?" I
said: "I have a sore tooth."
She said. "Apparently, you have had sore tooth for
the past year." The angry principal who had no shame
confessing that she was the Government watchdog added: "You
don't think that we know what you are doing, we are
watching you…."
I said, "OK, do you want me to tell you the truth?" She
said, "What is that?" I said, "I can't hate someone
I don't even know. I can't hate the westerns because
you don't like them." She said, "You will pay a price
for your attitude." I gave her my version of advice
in Farsi, which in translation is: "When someone is
drowning and submerged by water they couldn't care
less how deep they have sunk." I knew I would
find myself in trouble but I wanted to let her know
that
I am not brain washed.
She was true to her word. I paid
a heavy price for a very small phrase coming out
of a teenager's mouth.
But, their reaction made me realize that the government
of Iran is much weaker than many think. We just have
to know how to press them in the right spot.
I didn't
know that answering back to the government was such
a horrific crime, until later when I finally
made it to a Private university and had begun to
discover the extent of my youthful folly.
The Iranian
regime doesn't have much to fear from the opposition.
But they do fear those who are informed
about the message of the Koran; and can translate
and comprehend its deeper message, and who also have
enough
courage to teach and encourage others not to listen
to the madness the government of Iran preaches.
Among
the many arguments I had with the government concerned
the issue of forcing children to publicly
pray, so they could be photographed for propaganda
purposes. Even though I pray five times a day, I didn't
want to be manipulated by the government. I argued
with the watchdogs over the verses of Koran which state
that women shouldn't pray publicly nor should anyone
be forced to pray...
The theory of the Iranian regime
is: When anyone is opposed to the government, that
person must be pulled
out of the crowed and isolated and, most often, taken
to prison so others wouldn't follow--this was done
on numerous occasion under Khatami's regime; the
most liberal president the Westerners thought Iran
had.
The only reason they couldn't do that to me was
because I was well informed; both about the Islamic
laws and because my mother worked with a Lawyer for
many years. I knew enough about my rights that they
couldn't find my weak spot to make me quiet. And,
of course, it didn't help them that I had a very big
mouth,
was very persistent and my mother was an extremely
religious woman.
But, having said that, there was always
a chance of being kidnapped by the Iranian regime's
Intelligence
services, which was exactly what happened to me a
little later.
At other times during the war when Iraqi
planes were dropping bombs on us and the government
watchdogs
were telling the children to just pray and if they
died they will end up in Heaven. I asked them, "What
if they didn't die in their cause and what if they
are injured, who will be responsible for their lives?
Why should we follow you to the Depths of Hell when
you are not even sure about your own afterlife?"
I
despised the Iranian regime even more when the child
soldiers were taken off the streets without their
parents permission or consent and, after a short
while, a letter, along with a key drowned in their
child's
blood was delivered to their families. The children,
who were recruited directly from schools with the
help of the Iranian regime's employees, were sent to
the
borders, fed for two weeks and supposedly given military
training. The truth of matter was: Most of these
children were coming out of extremely poor families.
The children
were not in military camps, but were brain washed
by excessive prayers that government of Iran used to
persuade
them to walk into the mine fields to clear a path
for the soldiers to follow.
Every child soldier was
given a key. They were told that if they step on
the mines, they will end
up in heaven in the arms of 72 virgins.
After Graduating
from high school following the end of the Iran-Iraq
war, I set my ambitions on a place
at medical school. However, despite high scores on
my entrance exams, I was denied enrollment in medical
school or any public university because of my record
of non-conformity to arbitrary non-Islamic dictates
by the regime. Little did I realize that to get a
passing grade you had to be approved by the Intelligence
services
who monitored all students wishing to go to university.
Despite financial difficulties, I enrolled in a private
university, studying French Literature to prepare
for a law degree. At university, my low-key defiance
in
speaking to other students about the indefensible
dictates of the government mullahs caused me to be
continually
watched and harassed by faculty spies in retribution
for daring to quietly defy petty rules.
In October 1990,
I was abducted from the street by the secret police.
When I realized what was happening,
I escaped by jumping from the kidnapper's speeding
car into a busy street. I was seriously injured but
was rescued, temporarily, by the crowd. Although
I was the victim, I was rearrested on trumped up charges,
which typically resulted in a rapid death sentence,
taken to prison and released only by agreeing to
non-disclosure
and signing away my rights to pursue the case.
This
was just the beginning of three long years of fighting
with the government of Iran on a daily
basis. The second major incident happened in my third
year of university after receiving threatening mail
and phone calls from the Iranian Intelligence services.
I was threatened for taking innocent pictures of university
classmates. I was publicly condemned as the "American
Patriot" in national Friday prayers by Iran's
leader, the self-titled Ayatollah Khamani.
When I was
24, I was required to return to my birthplace, the
city of Abadan, to renew my birth certificate.
During a tour of the city, I attempted to
photograph, from a distance, the rusty hulk of what had once been one of
the world's largest refinery. My grandfather had worked in that refinery
during its good old days. I asked the cab driver to slow down. Instead,
he sped up, produced his Pasdar, Secret Police, identification
and threatened
to arrest me as a spy.
Realizing the government had marked me; I escaped out of Iran and made
it to Canada.
But I am here because I was a witness to atrocities
of the government of Iran. During the war, I, along
with millions of other kids was a victim of brainwashing;
forced to yell against anyone the regime dictated.
Some could not resist the propaganda. I did not become
a suicide bomber. Instead I turned my anger against
the Iranian regime. Once again, I want to return
the favor and I will teach other kids to do just that.